whats around the corner!?

So i went to the specalist about "the lump" and it is a cyst!
so i go and have a ct scan done in 2 weeks and then go back and see him on the 17th nov which i will then get booked in for the operation.
I have to stay in over night which is the down side of things but with my heart prob and stuff they just wanna make sure im 100% ok before they let me go home.

Last night went to daveys first time in a long time i been back there was not half bad 4 a fri night music wasnt to bad but it only started to get good at like 2 30ish. We then went across to flannies and catched up with Erin, Cara, Rhiannen, Heather and Jack who apparently i have met before but dont remember the guy at all, but it was good to see the chicks.

So im all pumped 4 oaks day on thursday going down to pakey for the races which should be awesome getting all dressed up and stuff head on down might have a few drinks but not 2 sure yet trying to not drink for the whole of november which prob wont happen easy but hey its worth a try.

wow im 20!

So today i turn 20.
its kinda scary like know when ppl say how old r u i can say im in my twenties! no longer do i say nineTEEN!! like dont have the teen thing n e more! which mean its time 2 grow up and i have been and people have notcied, which is a start and a step in the right direction.

i was thinking to myself i wanna set some goals that i wish to reach before i turn 21!

- i want to have my course finished and be a qualifed child care worker

- I want to settle down or find someone and kinda settle off the party seen for a bit its like the last 4ish months all i have been doing is going out and getting drunk which is fun but 1 a waste of money and 2 kinda getting bit over it

- i would like to be moved out of home and happy

- i want to have some more money saved up so i can go over seas

- And this year i wanna have the best new years ever! im going away with some awesome ppl and it should be the best fun yes they r making fun of me and skye coz were bring our hair striaghtners but oww well were girls!

- and i wont to have most of my car loan payed off!

i hope i can reach all of these things before my 21st and i know i can as long as i set my mind to it and save my but off.

afta all i am speding my bday with the best bunch of ppl going round!

shake it

so its exactly 1 week till my birthday 2 exciting going to be 20 which is the scary part but im excited!
off to laser force this saturday everyone thinks they will beat me mm sure guys!

so today is 2 years that my grandpa died and 7 since my aunty!
its fells just like yesterday i was in year 12 n found out i lost my grandpa and that my aunty died time just goes so quick but the pain doesnt go away as quick.

I also wish i could figure out the male brain its weird n confusing and i just dont get it!!

you know i could somebody, someone like you

ever felt like your the most unhappiest person and that your sourounded in a sea of the most happiest ppl going around?

like everything you ever thought was good in life turns out 2 be one big lie?

and that all you wanna do it know why?

oww what a night!!!

so last night dont remember that much at all me and daniel got smashed bunch of us went up to ha pennys for a mates 21st and got wasted i had 4 shots and 4 brezzers and 2 beers by 12 00, i was then kicked out at 12 30 for being to drunk. I have never been so drunk in all my life i couldnt hold my head up. We then caught a taxi back to a mates house were i just crashed and didnt see the light of day till 10 30 when i got up i still felt drunk which is the worst felling ever i didnt even manage to sleep thru the worst bit of the hang over i had to live it in the morning!! so then skye had to drive me 2 my car which i was in no state to drive to then daniel drove it from frankston to pakenham going like 120 the whole way thought i was going to die!!

We then had to do some work and me and skye had to fill wheel barrows with rocks and shit with a shuvel into wheel barrow and races with the guys of who could do it quicker we would have won if we didnt tip all of ours out. but we managed to fill and empty one in 7 minutes world record!
was and awesome day got sun burt on one arm but all in the name of fun!
18 days till my bday yay!!