I DID IT!!

I went motor bike riding weekend just gone, had the time of my life.

I nearly went over jump just didnt have the confidence up yet so i thought ill save it for next time.
I was having an awesome time until my poor buddy shattered his wrist and brike then man bone in his arm in 2 so it was a big drive home from heathcote to casey hospital and then we wait for 4 hours in the hospital to hear his reults.

But all in all it was an awesome weekend and i cant wait to go up again..

3 Weeks till my operation 17th aug hopefully this will be the last time.

Its Back!!

So the cyst has reformed and decided it would like to come back again, this time is it not as bad cant really notice it thank god!!! The doctor thought i would be lucky in the way the because last time it ruptured he thought he got it all out, and left drains in my neck for a week but wasnt enough. So this time we go in again and hope that it doesnt rupture n if it gets really sore or bigger i have to go straight to hopsital n hope the can do something to contain it until my operation but ohh well hopefully this will be the last time.

Im off motor bike riding (dirt bike) next weekend which i cant wait havent really riden a motor bike riding at all but im going to give it a shot it should be awesome fun n i cant wait!! hopefully i dont break any bones on my trip!

take care xoxo

A year on but yet things never change

A year goes bye n yet u still fell the same but you always wish you wouldnt.
Times change people change, yet sometimes you wish you could hit a rewind button

and thing would magically go back because you know you would do you whole year differently

the job offers you turn down the freinds you have fought with the people you have let go
the love ones you have lost and watch slowly slip away the person u thought was right but turned out wrong are all set to challenge us.

I wish sometimes i could go back in time re do some things stuck up for myself more fought for myself more

showed people they hey im no push over so dont even try. I fell i have become someone the just slips under

the radar n i dont want to be that person anymore i wont to stick up for what i wont fight for what i wont

and not let some person push me over.

So look back a year ago n think what was and look now and think what you would like to change and change so next year you can look at yourself and go wow i was really happy and loved everything i became and everything i did.

life is for living not dwelling :)
xoxo

owch

Had my first gym class on saturday i did body pump, u have to do weights squats launges and all this other body stuff to help u get muscles! this morning i have woken up (day after) with the sorest legs ever i couldnt even run at rep bball training which sucked bad! But it just got worse i had mixed 2night and some chick thought it would be fun to elbow me in my right eye i now have a nice bruise and swallen eye! hurts bad!!

I have also been strong on my drinking ban ppl tried 2 get me 2 drink last night at a mates bday n i didnt woo yeah!! so im doin well i dont think ill last till my bday like i would have liked to have done ill prob drink next week at anzac day but now that i know how much it hurts to work off the weight/calories that u put on when u drink it hurts so bad to work them off lol so i would rather just not drink n not put them on! much better way!!!

Never Again!

I dunno what to think anymore im done on many things cant be bothered trying anymore.

So no idea what else to say...

I have also lost my job for those who dont know but i have got a job with an agency starting the minute i get my police check so its going to kill me to go back to work and stop sitting at home having fun and freedom but i supose i need the money starting to run low a bit now which sucks.
But it turns out i am owed more money and get my rudd love soon so ill be back on track in no time at all i hope n e ways.

I also got tickets to anzac day fotty which is going to be awesome (might stop my drinking ban 4 just that day) lol to have the full fotty experince of beer and the good old four and twenty pie.
So better have a couple beers to make the day better.

I found out this year after 20 years of like nearly 21 years that the easter bunnys is not real his is fake. which made me cry nearly. lol
hope every1 had a happy easter.
take care all

Why dont they get NO means NO

Seriously what is with men these days? dont they get it when u say no the first time?
my freind is trying to set me up with a 30 year old yes she is going insane!!! im only 20 (nearly 21) and his 30 how does NO sound! so he got my number off her n msged me n wanted to cook me dinner n i was like no sorry cant he asked me bout 5 time everytime i was like no sorry cant im busy or just cant but yet he still persisited (desprete guy). And then i msged him saying look dude im sorry but i cant im not looking 4 n e thing or n e 1 im happy just way things are atm and not willing to change it then he goes ohh neither am i just looking 4 a freinds with beneifts no u over course tho 4 that umm hello NO! told my freind who is also his freind who had spoken 2 him night before all he was trying 2 do it get me in n hooked so that way i would fall 4 him n go out with him ( what is with some men these day honestly). So today at work i msged him n said im sorry but its never going to happen im sorry but no! n he still hasnt got the msg! AHHH!!!

Brighter topic.... we won basketbal last night by a small 65 points to the top team it gets seriously boring sometime when the other team start passing u the ball cause they have givin up is just sad! and this is how it was last night by the time we were up by 50 the started passing us the ball n gave up. but next season we are going up to A grade we are in C/D grade now so its a big jump but oww well we should be right!
The expect compeshion date for my diploma is august so fingers crossed i stay on track and have it all done by this date! i can only hope n pray i dont loose consentration on it and keep my mind set on the target PAY RISE!!!

Take care all! xx

hmmm

so life has been crazy past few weeks i have good bad knee probs back again and have 2 get orthotics and bak 2 physio 2-3 times a week. my knee is going at 1 00 at my foot to 11 00. so it sucks a tad.
Other than that nothing else is knew i went on a date but im loving "playing the feild" and having the time of my life and i just needed this to happenen 2 show me that.

really dunno what else to say

temptation will not get the better of me this time

So i have kicked off my "09" with a diet and get fit plan.

I have started getting personal training lessons with a mate once a week and the hurts i walk out with saw arms and legs today i held 10kilos in each arm and did 30 sqats which was hard but i did it.
I have also uped my sport every week which now is
basketball tues sunday netball wed marshall arts thurs and personal training mon or fri and the thousand steps every saturday morning with rhiannen.

I have also been eating VEGETABLES yes me the person who calmes she is illergic to them just so i dont have to eat them.
So i hope i stick to it this time i think i will im starting to get arm muscles and slowly losing the belly fat, sometime soon ill be skinny and have muscles!!

fish bowls at taco bills!

These are no good to have a whole one to yourself i look back on msgs and phone calls and photos and cant remember half of them!
But what i do remember is that it was an awesome night and i had the best fun in a long time.

So i have offically killed 3 fish yes 3 no good i have no idea why these fish keep dieing i have done nothing wrong and it makes no sense at all.

i have no idea what else to write bit hung over so when i think of something practical to type here i will come back!

GO THE FISH BOWLS!!

Need a distraction....

So i have been doing homework for nearly like 5 hours straight and my brain is getting fried bad. I have managed to complete like 3 books which is alot cause each book has about 9 assignments with around 3 questions per assessment and they have to be anyy where between 200-800 words per question. So im cactas but need to do atleast another book tonight.

<----- this is a photo of me in daniels scober diving gear this stuff is so heavy i nearly fell backwards it was that heavy beacuse i have to inflate the vest till you are ready to sink but it gets heaps heavy on your shoulders and everything but apparently once your in water its not heavy at all but when you need to walk up the stairs to get into the boat its really heavy.

-----> Is a photo of my holding a pythan yes i held a snake not even i can belive i did i have the biggest fear in the world of snakes but i did it thank god the things head or tail didnt come near me i would have cried. beacuse the man said that is we touched its head it would have made its mouth open causing it to bite me and hurt me and if we touched the tail it could have bitten us as well so either way i was going be skrewed thus explaining why i took the middle nothing could really go wrong there. But it was an awesome experince and i would encourage ppl to do it i have the biggest fear of snakes ever and they are awesome well this one was anyway lol.

What a blast!!

So i never thought i would be one to enjoy camping much im preaty girly when it comes to most things but omg is camping awesome or what.

It all start 20 minutes after we go there and the boys were nice enough to put our tent up and there weather was nice as when the put it up so they didnt bother tying it down they just pegged it down well when we got there around an hour after they put it up the rain came pelting down and our tent nearly blu away but we got it pegged down and it was all sweet after that.
i held a huge pythan the ones that can strangle and kill you i was shitting myself but it was the best fun ever, jumped off the mamosa rocks which are huge, played britsh bulldogs on the massive pillow trampolene with the boys and got a nice tan as well.

But i cant wait to do it all again next year its all booked in so its going to be a blast heaps more happened but im that tired and cant be bothered blogging anymore so when i can be ill put up the rest about my trip and some photos.