2008

Ever had the felling where everything is a blur and what you wont in and out of your life your not quiet sure about?
like everything you ever found secure is not anymore?

I fell like im 20 and you think that most people by now know what they wont out of life what carrer path they are choosing or what they can seem them selves as in 15 years i see a blur. Because this will be my last blog for the year because i leave for camping on saturday my goals for 2009 are:
- To find out what i wont in life
- To settle down and start living like an adult
- Not drink as much
- And grow up

Its like this year my life has done a complete 360 and i find myself back at the start and its time to start going places and doing more for me.

Merry christmas everyone and have a happy and safe new year guys!

Got me thinking....

So it got me thinking the other day, my mate is 20 same as me and has brought half a house and his brother brought the other half at 20, i am 20 myself and think all i have is a new car which i know sounds like alot to some people but to me i could only dream of owning half a house or going in with people to buy a house. That is why i have come to the conclusion of as of new years my resolution is to save enough for a house deposit or come as close as possible.
I am going to start by paying more than double payments on my car i pay double now but a little more wont hurt i will then save a lot for this house i know i wont have much of a going out life but they are doing something that will set them up for life and as mick sat me down and helped me work everything out it is so possible.

So i thought so many of us have these dreams but we are always like omg no way that is way to hard no its way out of reach its not all it takes is for you to yes i am doing it and then to put the plan into motion, you need to set your self a target and at first it will seem so scary thinking omg im saving 20-30 thousand for a house or im saving so much for a new car or to go over seas its not scary, life is about dream and for filling those dreams and living. Trust me if i can save for a house than anything is possible i love my shopping but a house is so much better.


15 days till xmas!! thank god then im going camping yay cant wait.

what if?...

The question that comes to mind of late is what if?

what if people gace things a second chance and for gave people if they did wrong but they could over come this and give things and people a second chance?

what if people were prepaired to jump and werent worried were they landed?

what if you could see into the future and see where you future and your life was heading?

what if you could turn off fellings for people because u know it will only lead to heart break in the end?

so many more questions come to mind when i think of this life is like a rollar coster ride we all have our ups and downs yes the downs can be bad really bad but what if we could get over and forgive or forget? then the ups are so good they are like the happiest days in your life or those moments you dont want to ever end, but as they say all good things have to come to an end why? why must all good things come to and end if they make us fell the happiest and the most incontrol we have ever felt why must all good things come to an end?

why is it also that guys are so complecated never knowing from one day to the next what they wont always using girls as "a piece of meat" where have all the decent guys gone ones looking to settle down and not just to have a "fling"?