tell me how im supposed to breath with no air

Life can send you on some twisted paths leading to your happely ever after or to you world war 3!
im a strong beliver that things happen for a reason, and that if a door closes you learn from you experices and that you must move foward in order to accomplish and no why it is that door closed! when one door closes another one opens weather or not that is the right one for you or not is not to be known only time will tell and show you if it really was the right door to open!

Moving foward to soon is going to lead you to things that prehaps you dont wish to do but yet waiting can also give the impression that " thats it".
Life is full of many obsitcals that surround as and are there to challange us and make us grow into a bigger and better person than what we used to be, in my eye me moving foward is to leave the past behind leave the happy memories and the sad one will never appear because in your eyes all you can see is the happy things that life brings to you. I am fully ready to move on now and start that new chapter with my new car and a new refrshed happier me one that is going to take risks because a risk is their to challange you and show you wat life is really all about.
Moving foward as just being me is better than me+1 because as many say you born just you and your family people come and go but your family will always be there for you no matter wat so the people that come and go you love and imbrase them for when they are around but when they are gone you need to let them go.
My grandpa coming and telling me in my dreams that i need to let him go cause he couldnt go until i was fully ready 2 accept that he was gone but when i did i knew that he was gone but yet all the happy memories will never die!

this was one blog that will prob not make sence to many but it is stuff i need to say and get out and re assure myself that i am doing wats right for me because i no myself not because someone else is telling me!!

mm well...

Over the past week i have had some time to so some serious me time time to just sit back relax and think my little brain out. Life over the past month has had its rocky moments and its heart break but as i start to see a the light at the end of the tunnel, it bring a sign of relief.

Im not going to say that i am happy with some decisions that have happened cause im not but yet im over people telling me that there is plenty more fish in the sea, sometimes you want just 1 fish n u cant have it!!! it is driving me insane! i begin then to wonder going out last weekend was awesome with the chicks from work i hooked up with the 3 people i only remember 2 but apperently there was a 3rd some how yet every time i hooked up wtih one of em felt kinda like i was cheating i have no idea why tho cause im not but who no's, then this guy got my number all well n good msged a pew time called a few time n i was like meh not all that interested but hey who nos! and then during my thinking session decided i would stay single a bit more longer as many would say "play the field" sounds slutty i no but i dunno if im quiet ready to be setteled down again.

so as i start a new chapter in my life one with new hair color and a new me one that acts more mauture acts older than i was and is making something of myself taking a car loan was one of the best things i have had to act like an adult and its done me some good. so as i leave the old me behind the immature irrasponsible stupid blonde heart broken me behind and im picking up the pieces and starting a new better me i think a SMART blonder version!!.

new car

well this is my new car!

im so excited get it in a couple weeks so ill b zoomin round it in really soon n not the old bomb, and i got a really good price on it so yeah all excited fresh start!

i was going to get the orange but once i looked at green again it was like buy me so i did lol n im going to call it MINI SHREK!

take care all hope alls well xx

mmmm

so once again im back to the single life!
i never noticed how lonley it fells 2 be single
i hope that one day the tears will stop n the hurt will stop and i will come 2 realise that shit happens and you just have to move on.
i went to church for the first time today in a year or so and i needed to go i learnt that doors close and you learn from your experences and the maybe in time it will happen again but if it doesnt then you just take it as time well spent then and time now to move on.

anyways on to a lighter brighter topic now, i got a good price on my new car im so excited now just putting in loan papers 2morrow n hopefully in a couple weeks ill be driving round my new car so im excited!

anyways take care all!xx

ok so i just thought i would start typing n c where i end up.

Life has been so busy of late im working 10-6.30 for the past 2 weeks n i love it but by 6 30 im recked n just wanna go 2 bed but it has also been awesome i have been able 2 go out a few night 2 the pub n stuff, which has been awesome.
Im excited in 2 weeks im going 2 be a perminate assistant in the babies room which is awesome cause i love it in there they are also lil kids n sleep all day lol!
The lady im working with is also great fun n we have heaps plans 4 our new room! :D

Im also going looking 4 a new car this weekend which i cant wait i need a new 1 so so so so so so bad my car now is so old n un relaible its like its gunna go n e day!
I have also started 2 join the gym finally i have decided 2 get fit n drop a few kilos on my belly so im really excited bout that n im going 3 times a week! so ill b busy busy!

n e ways take care all
xx

get me out of this water so deap!

my life has now become one of stress, me n my dad r non stop fighting and work is stressing me out slowly!

i have never been so bored in all my life i have been home all day n tried doing some homework but i just cant stay motivated longer than an hour n nothing gets done in that hour, i might read thru couple pages but thats all that seems to happen which i could, stay motivated longer get this stupid course over n done with so much quicker.

i have found a new song that i have fallen in love with i think you should all have a listen
its called: NO AIR BY JORDIN SPARKS!
its awesome!

n e ways hope all ppls r well!
byez xx

the sun will come out tomorrow

i have finally after 19.5 years come 2 learn life always has its bad days! my luck has finally changed 4 the better, n it couldnt come at a better time.

work has become somehwre i enjoy being now, i am with the age group i like 2 b with n enjoy being with, n still get 2 do breaks a couple days a week.
I am also getting along with most of the girls now n fell kinda accepted no that sounds stupid but yeh, im starting 2 go 2 the gym once a week with 1 of them n a couple of us r doing hip hop!!

Thing with my family n stuff r going preaty well 2 im starting 2 get along with dad better which is an up side, n me n steve seem happy, so its all going good again.

it has also been nearly 2 years that my grandpa has passed away man does time fly iim am still always thinking of him but these last 2 years have just flown by.

hope lifes going good 4 every one else.
take care all
xoxo