What a blast!!

So i never thought i would be one to enjoy camping much im preaty girly when it comes to most things but omg is camping awesome or what.

It all start 20 minutes after we go there and the boys were nice enough to put our tent up and there weather was nice as when the put it up so they didnt bother tying it down they just pegged it down well when we got there around an hour after they put it up the rain came pelting down and our tent nearly blu away but we got it pegged down and it was all sweet after that.
i held a huge pythan the ones that can strangle and kill you i was shitting myself but it was the best fun ever, jumped off the mamosa rocks which are huge, played britsh bulldogs on the massive pillow trampolene with the boys and got a nice tan as well.

But i cant wait to do it all again next year its all booked in so its going to be a blast heaps more happened but im that tired and cant be bothered blogging anymore so when i can be ill put up the rest about my trip and some photos.

2008

Ever had the felling where everything is a blur and what you wont in and out of your life your not quiet sure about?
like everything you ever found secure is not anymore?

I fell like im 20 and you think that most people by now know what they wont out of life what carrer path they are choosing or what they can seem them selves as in 15 years i see a blur. Because this will be my last blog for the year because i leave for camping on saturday my goals for 2009 are:
- To find out what i wont in life
- To settle down and start living like an adult
- Not drink as much
- And grow up

Its like this year my life has done a complete 360 and i find myself back at the start and its time to start going places and doing more for me.

Merry christmas everyone and have a happy and safe new year guys!

Got me thinking....

So it got me thinking the other day, my mate is 20 same as me and has brought half a house and his brother brought the other half at 20, i am 20 myself and think all i have is a new car which i know sounds like alot to some people but to me i could only dream of owning half a house or going in with people to buy a house. That is why i have come to the conclusion of as of new years my resolution is to save enough for a house deposit or come as close as possible.
I am going to start by paying more than double payments on my car i pay double now but a little more wont hurt i will then save a lot for this house i know i wont have much of a going out life but they are doing something that will set them up for life and as mick sat me down and helped me work everything out it is so possible.

So i thought so many of us have these dreams but we are always like omg no way that is way to hard no its way out of reach its not all it takes is for you to yes i am doing it and then to put the plan into motion, you need to set your self a target and at first it will seem so scary thinking omg im saving 20-30 thousand for a house or im saving so much for a new car or to go over seas its not scary, life is about dream and for filling those dreams and living. Trust me if i can save for a house than anything is possible i love my shopping but a house is so much better.


15 days till xmas!! thank god then im going camping yay cant wait.

what if?...

The question that comes to mind of late is what if?

what if people gace things a second chance and for gave people if they did wrong but they could over come this and give things and people a second chance?

what if people were prepaired to jump and werent worried were they landed?

what if you could see into the future and see where you future and your life was heading?

what if you could turn off fellings for people because u know it will only lead to heart break in the end?

so many more questions come to mind when i think of this life is like a rollar coster ride we all have our ups and downs yes the downs can be bad really bad but what if we could get over and forgive or forget? then the ups are so good they are like the happiest days in your life or those moments you dont want to ever end, but as they say all good things have to come to an end why? why must all good things come to and end if they make us fell the happiest and the most incontrol we have ever felt why must all good things come to an end?

why is it also that guys are so complecated never knowing from one day to the next what they wont always using girls as "a piece of meat" where have all the decent guys gone ones looking to settle down and not just to have a "fling"?

Its all done for the minute

so i have had the operation and all that jazz. Thank god its over for know, when i had all the tests done on "the lump" it came back as one type of cyst which is call a branchial cleft cyst which starts forming from embrio stage and its skin particles that done close over and all attach together and cause a cyst, when they opened up my neck they couldnt find the cyst there suprise suprise and they then thought it was an infection in my limft noide in the neck so the drained all that and took all that out in the operation. That all then got sent off to the lab app it was the size of a golf ball and tests where ran on it. When i got the 1st lot of results back it showed that there were no bugs which was a good sign no cancer nothing so i was happy until the second lot of results came back, showing that i had a cyst of the limft noide not an infection so this means that a cyst could re accor on my neck again down the track because when they had me asleep they didnt now it was a cyst so they didnt remove it all, so i could get another one down the track they think it is unlikey because i spent the week in hopsital with 2 drains coming out of my neck, this would have drainied any access cells left behind (we hope) needless to say when my specalist found this out he got a few ppl in trouble because this is why i had the ultra sound done the ct scan and the biopsey done to ensure that when it got to operation time we had no suprises but in my case we had a big one so yes. So its back to hopsital on monday to get the remaining stiches out which shouldnt hurt considering the last 5 didnt that were holding the drains in, so now i have this nice big dressing on my neck keeping the thing covered and to little things keeping the lil holes closed were the drains were.

So im glad its all over and i got out of hopsital which ended up being like a jail it was that boring no tv nothing and a whole lot of old ppl i was the only girl on the ward and all old men snoring their heads off it was an awesome week.

Have a good weekend take care all!!

YAY ITS NEARLY OVER!!!

So today i had my ct scan and biopsey which were both as scary as anything, it become the day from hell. It all started with the Ct scan and the lady saying ok we are going to inject some blue die into you and i was like hang on hold up and i said to dad no i dont want it with my heart and all i dont know what this stupid die stuff is going to do so i didnt have the die but still had to have the stupid scan which was this big donut looking thing going round and round my kneck taking pictures and i just got to lay there while the bed moved back wards and fowards and so on it kinda made you fell like car sick ish no good. Then it was off to have the biopsey which hurt like hell!! i nearly screamed when the neddle went into my kneck and the man kept moving it so he could try get some of the fluid out it felt grows and saw as having a needle moved up and down in your kneck and only getting like half a neddles worth of shit out when they tell you oww yes we will easly get two needles worth out for you and so most of the lump will go down, so not the case at all the lump is still big annouying but not as saw and i can move my kneck a bit more freely now. But what came of my wonderful 2 hours in hospital was that they are like 99% sure it is a cyst which will deffently need to be cut out and they have to put my to sleep to do that, so im totally freaking out 1 because i hate hospitals at 2 i hate being put to sleep there just the worry of not waking up i know it just to have a cyst removed, but i worry. Also i found out i wont be having it removed till it goes down they wont opperate on it while its so big which is a pain cause i just wont it out now.

But the second half of my day was awesome the sarvo went to a mates house and swam in the pool for like 3 hours we just sat and chat and swam a bit and i got brown lol for once in my life i didnt burn!!

I also am going to do and stick to this time no drinking till christmas day!! i know hard to belive me doin it two months its going to be hard but so far i have done it and farley easly, i havent really had the urge to drink or anything so 12 days into my 55 day challange and im doing really well! i have lasted longer than any other time! everyone has beats that i will only last 2 weeks but clearly i will pass that and a month tops but i will push for the 55 days cause who needs to drink to have fun?? if you do then that i reckon is sad. And you shouldnt need a drink to dance either i reckon but hey each to their own.

take care!

moving on up

Went to oaks day yesterday had the best fun ever was awesome just me and hannah went we got sunburt but it was well worth it, we won money lol.

so the lump is starting to become painfull and i just wont it out im getting over it over the lack of sleep because of it, its because every time i sleep on it; it hurts which wakes me up.

so my fish are still alive and kicking 2 weeks on 1 clean of the tank later and they are still going!! woo yeah go me. the last 4 were dead by now so im doing well lol thanks to the help of a few ppl.

so i was ment to be moving out of home soon and moving in with some mates the house is nearly ready but i dont think i will anymore being at home is good im managaing to save some money at shit so me and mate that were going to move in choose not to any more we have decided we are going to save for our own house. sounds like a big thing but these days with the first home buyers grant go up its better to by your own house and put money you would have spent on rent paying someone else morgage off your own.
so we are hoping by round this time next year to have the money saved up and going looking.