temptation will not get the better of me this time

So i have kicked off my "09" with a diet and get fit plan.

I have started getting personal training lessons with a mate once a week and the hurts i walk out with saw arms and legs today i held 10kilos in each arm and did 30 sqats which was hard but i did it.
I have also uped my sport every week which now is
basketball tues sunday netball wed marshall arts thurs and personal training mon or fri and the thousand steps every saturday morning with rhiannen.

I have also been eating VEGETABLES yes me the person who calmes she is illergic to them just so i dont have to eat them.
So i hope i stick to it this time i think i will im starting to get arm muscles and slowly losing the belly fat, sometime soon ill be skinny and have muscles!!

fish bowls at taco bills!

These are no good to have a whole one to yourself i look back on msgs and phone calls and photos and cant remember half of them!
But what i do remember is that it was an awesome night and i had the best fun in a long time.

So i have offically killed 3 fish yes 3 no good i have no idea why these fish keep dieing i have done nothing wrong and it makes no sense at all.

i have no idea what else to write bit hung over so when i think of something practical to type here i will come back!

GO THE FISH BOWLS!!

Need a distraction....

So i have been doing homework for nearly like 5 hours straight and my brain is getting fried bad. I have managed to complete like 3 books which is alot cause each book has about 9 assignments with around 3 questions per assessment and they have to be anyy where between 200-800 words per question. So im cactas but need to do atleast another book tonight.

<----- this is a photo of me in daniels scober diving gear this stuff is so heavy i nearly fell backwards it was that heavy beacuse i have to inflate the vest till you are ready to sink but it gets heaps heavy on your shoulders and everything but apparently once your in water its not heavy at all but when you need to walk up the stairs to get into the boat its really heavy.

-----> Is a photo of my holding a pythan yes i held a snake not even i can belive i did i have the biggest fear in the world of snakes but i did it thank god the things head or tail didnt come near me i would have cried. beacuse the man said that is we touched its head it would have made its mouth open causing it to bite me and hurt me and if we touched the tail it could have bitten us as well so either way i was going be skrewed thus explaining why i took the middle nothing could really go wrong there. But it was an awesome experince and i would encourage ppl to do it i have the biggest fear of snakes ever and they are awesome well this one was anyway lol.

What a blast!!

So i never thought i would be one to enjoy camping much im preaty girly when it comes to most things but omg is camping awesome or what.

It all start 20 minutes after we go there and the boys were nice enough to put our tent up and there weather was nice as when the put it up so they didnt bother tying it down they just pegged it down well when we got there around an hour after they put it up the rain came pelting down and our tent nearly blu away but we got it pegged down and it was all sweet after that.
i held a huge pythan the ones that can strangle and kill you i was shitting myself but it was the best fun ever, jumped off the mamosa rocks which are huge, played britsh bulldogs on the massive pillow trampolene with the boys and got a nice tan as well.

But i cant wait to do it all again next year its all booked in so its going to be a blast heaps more happened but im that tired and cant be bothered blogging anymore so when i can be ill put up the rest about my trip and some photos.

2008

Ever had the felling where everything is a blur and what you wont in and out of your life your not quiet sure about?
like everything you ever found secure is not anymore?

I fell like im 20 and you think that most people by now know what they wont out of life what carrer path they are choosing or what they can seem them selves as in 15 years i see a blur. Because this will be my last blog for the year because i leave for camping on saturday my goals for 2009 are:
- To find out what i wont in life
- To settle down and start living like an adult
- Not drink as much
- And grow up

Its like this year my life has done a complete 360 and i find myself back at the start and its time to start going places and doing more for me.

Merry christmas everyone and have a happy and safe new year guys!

Got me thinking....

So it got me thinking the other day, my mate is 20 same as me and has brought half a house and his brother brought the other half at 20, i am 20 myself and think all i have is a new car which i know sounds like alot to some people but to me i could only dream of owning half a house or going in with people to buy a house. That is why i have come to the conclusion of as of new years my resolution is to save enough for a house deposit or come as close as possible.
I am going to start by paying more than double payments on my car i pay double now but a little more wont hurt i will then save a lot for this house i know i wont have much of a going out life but they are doing something that will set them up for life and as mick sat me down and helped me work everything out it is so possible.

So i thought so many of us have these dreams but we are always like omg no way that is way to hard no its way out of reach its not all it takes is for you to yes i am doing it and then to put the plan into motion, you need to set your self a target and at first it will seem so scary thinking omg im saving 20-30 thousand for a house or im saving so much for a new car or to go over seas its not scary, life is about dream and for filling those dreams and living. Trust me if i can save for a house than anything is possible i love my shopping but a house is so much better.


15 days till xmas!! thank god then im going camping yay cant wait.

what if?...

The question that comes to mind of late is what if?

what if people gace things a second chance and for gave people if they did wrong but they could over come this and give things and people a second chance?

what if people were prepaired to jump and werent worried were they landed?

what if you could see into the future and see where you future and your life was heading?

what if you could turn off fellings for people because u know it will only lead to heart break in the end?

so many more questions come to mind when i think of this life is like a rollar coster ride we all have our ups and downs yes the downs can be bad really bad but what if we could get over and forgive or forget? then the ups are so good they are like the happiest days in your life or those moments you dont want to ever end, but as they say all good things have to come to an end why? why must all good things come to and end if they make us fell the happiest and the most incontrol we have ever felt why must all good things come to an end?

why is it also that guys are so complecated never knowing from one day to the next what they wont always using girls as "a piece of meat" where have all the decent guys gone ones looking to settle down and not just to have a "fling"?