mm well...

Over the past week i have had some time to so some serious me time time to just sit back relax and think my little brain out. Life over the past month has had its rocky moments and its heart break but as i start to see a the light at the end of the tunnel, it bring a sign of relief.

Im not going to say that i am happy with some decisions that have happened cause im not but yet im over people telling me that there is plenty more fish in the sea, sometimes you want just 1 fish n u cant have it!!! it is driving me insane! i begin then to wonder going out last weekend was awesome with the chicks from work i hooked up with the 3 people i only remember 2 but apperently there was a 3rd some how yet every time i hooked up wtih one of em felt kinda like i was cheating i have no idea why tho cause im not but who no's, then this guy got my number all well n good msged a pew time called a few time n i was like meh not all that interested but hey who nos! and then during my thinking session decided i would stay single a bit more longer as many would say "play the field" sounds slutty i no but i dunno if im quiet ready to be setteled down again.

so as i start a new chapter in my life one with new hair color and a new me one that acts more mauture acts older than i was and is making something of myself taking a car loan was one of the best things i have had to act like an adult and its done me some good. so as i leave the old me behind the immature irrasponsible stupid blonde heart broken me behind and im picking up the pieces and starting a new better me i think a SMART blonder version!!.